Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Not Settling . . . Seeking God's Best

So, I've been interviewing like crazy, and trying desperately to stay open to wherever God may want me. I have recently interviewed in Houston, Austin, Webster, Humble, Dickinson, Seguin, Boerne, Winston-Salem, NC, Beeville, TX, and I'm about to head to Wylie tomorrow. I've interviewed for Children's homes, homeless women's shelters, law firms, and churches. In all this I'm trying to seek what God wants, and not what I want. Sometimes that is such a fine line. However, if my passion is Him one would think the passions I have would be in line with His. I guess I just have to trust that, and let that be my guide. Right now my heart is saying I need to stay in the Houston or the surrounding area. However, I struggle with that since the only thing that is a sure bet at this point is a job in Beeville. I know they want someone out there that would like to stay for awhile, and I'm not certain that is me. My passion is to be back in youth ministry, and to get to do that full time like I did in Midland. Midland had its challenges since I was away from friends and family, but I was getting to share my faith and provide programming, and building relationships with youth in ways that I've always longed to. While I know I'd make an excellent case worker, and that it includes good benefits, and is really a good deal, I don't know if it's exactly where I need to be. A friend recently reminded me about not settling, and I'm determined to take his advice. I mean it's a great opportunity, but I have the overwhelming feeling that God has something more. I think I just need to let Him work. I mean after all, most of the time all this interview process stuff can take awhile. I don't want to rush God, or just take an offer because it's the only one I can see at the moment. If you're reading this please pray for me in all of this. Thank you so much!!

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