Is Hurting and Feeling Silly

So, you can pretty much disregard my last post. I was under the impression that the offer at Beeville was a certain offer. I guess it was a hypothetical when they said the job was mine I just had to accept the offer. The lady I told that I would accept the offer on Friday, called today to say that apparently the director had scheduled some interviews with other people and they wanted to go ahead and meet with them. So, I don't have the job just yet, if at all. At this point nothing is certain. It's all in God's hands. Of course, that leaves me a bit uncertain on what to do. I know the thing to do is to keep seeking God and pray, but beyond that I don't have a clue. I can't help but feel a bit hurt by everything though, I mean all this weekend I went around telling people I had a job at the children's home. I'm going to feel a bit foolish going back to all those people and say that I may not be after all. It reminds me of when I went to Hawaii and spent the week telling those in our tour group about my fiance, and being engaged, and then the day I got back he broke up with me. I felt kind of foolish then like I do now. I know God has a plan, he always does, perhaps I wasn't meant to be there and something else will come up, or perhaps I am and all of this hurt will be for nothing other than seeing how I respond. Oh well, I've told Jesus, and he'll figure it out!

The Next Step on the Journey . . .

So, after much prayer and searching everywhere for where God might be sending me next, I'm reminded of something that I prayed at the beginning of the search for the next step. I prayed God would open the door clearly where He wanted me. My heart is to just serve Him and share His love mostly with youth and kids, and at some point focus more on counseling families. Of course there is also this passion to help in some of the things that I've seen in the church that have bothered me for years. It looks like for now God is sending me after my first passion, and I will get the extreme privilege of serving Him by loving on some kids in Texas who are in desperate need of His love at the South Texas Children's Home. I get to serve as a caseworker to help kids that we accept into the home with the transition into the home and then watch over them for their time in the home. I won't be too far from Houston, so I can still come home some weekends which is one thing that will be nice. While this is different from where I thought I might originally end up, I am certain God will do amazing things in my life during my time there, and hopefully in the kids I get to reach out to. I ask that you would please start praying now for the kids and families God will bring into my path on my case load. I hope to perhaps start writing some of the things God has been putting on my heart as well during this time. I know this is just another step in the journey God has me on as I seek to live for Him and love His people. There is a song lately that has been my heart's song by Matthew West "You Are Everything".

Here's just the chorus but the whole song is great, Jesus truly is everything that I live for and I just have to trust Him. Without Him in my life I truly wouldn't have gotten this far and I know that the Lord has a great plan for me.

You are everything that I live for
Everything that I can’t believe is happening
You’re standing right in front of me
With arms wide open
All I know is
Every day is filled with hope
'Cause You
are everything that I believe for
And I can’t help but breathe you in
Breathe again
Feeling all this life within
Every single beat of my heart