Everything Is Beautiful

So, today was a hard day. Actually, it all began last night. I had such an amazing day at church yesterday. I've been questioning whether or not I should be attending the church I have for the past month now. I really want to be where God wants me. However, I keep feeling called to go there. Last week one member of the praise team mentioned how it was nice to see me worshiping and that she would see me next week. Well, this week there was a lady there who I had sang with in a group at a women's ministry event awhile back. She I found is also over the prayer ministry, and knowing me she aimed at including me. One guy there also told me how great my presence was there and that if I ever needed prayer I could find it there. Until I started going there I had struggled so much on Sundays never knowing where I wanted to go to church, not feeling like I truly belonged at the ones I did go to, and really didn't see that changing.

So, what's the hard part? Well, the friend of mine who I found out about the church from since they actually work there recently deleted me and blocked me from all their things online. I fear they may think I've been going to the church for them. However, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I'm simply there to worship God. I'm actually excited about Sunday now, I love the people of the church, the concept of the church, and the spirit of the church. It hurts me that anyone may venture to say that I'm there for any other purpose than to worship and praise my God with other like minded people. Of course, I don't know if that's why they deleted me, but they aren't saying. That hurts too.

The good part is I am in love with an AWESOME God, who loves me, and knows me. He knows my heart, and my true intentions. He has everything in His hands, and that's a great place for it all to be. That even in everything that I don't understand, and that is painful He is there, and EVERYTHING IS BEAUTIFUL!!! His love changes everything!!

But love it washes over
Love it pulls me closer
Love it changes everthing

Everything is beautiful
Even when the tears are falling
I don't need a miracle to believe
Even in the crashing down
I can hear redemtion calling
And everything is beautiful to me